For fellow Scorpio suns, this goodbye November prayer. I commiserate with you all. Aren’t we terrible?

At this point, it’s not enthusiasm which drives me.
The impulse is not to fall in love, but to rise in it.
I’m like a travelling medicine show.
Seeking out the most exotic soul maladies.
Infecting ladies whose beauty have become tricky to perceive.
I become the right remedy, the unforeseen Rx.
Everytime shedding another layer of my earthiness.
Thus I butterfly into something new.
I cannot aim it or trick it by anticipating a preference.
I shed more of my skin to approach my deep self.
Maybe soon I will be aphysical, translucent, a mirror.
Time is shorter but it travels slow as I want.
Time is shorter but I know some secrets.
Even if I tell them, you will not know them.
That’s not the way to understand.
Upwards of 50% of my dream comrades are not alive.
That’s how I know we don’t die.
It’s just that we run out of false layers to shed.

Master told once how each night, during dreamless sleep
We parlay with our angel who makes proposals
But only to our subconscious; we are bound by our intuitions.
And they are fleeting! You must pay attention!
More attention than you can rightly believe.
A blackout curtain guards the rim of two worlds.
We cannot operate in the spirit realm consciously.
Yet only while living do we forge skills to be healthy there.
The dead cannot improve their heavenly lots,
But can transmit timely whims to those alive they’ve been close with.
We are wisdomless what to do or how, but we have our freedom.
Precisely because we are near clueless is why we are free!
They can see much more, but have no means to truly act. Hands tied.
They do not judge harshly for they see plainly how demons operate in us.
Everything depends upon opening a channel.
The color of the present is darkening.
The color of the future depends upon cooperation across the barrier.

At this point its not enthusiasm which drives me.

_______RS

[ Image: Portion of author’s natal chart, probably crafted by an AI. For astro-nerds: Ascendant is in Aquarius, and Jupiter not quite exalted in Taurus. ] 

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